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- When I pray, I cannot hear or feel any response from the Divine. Sometimes I feel foolish, like I am wasting my time, but I very much want to deepen my relationship with the Divine. I don’t expect to hear an ethereal voice in my mind, but I want to feel something when I pray, some connection that helps me feel closer to God. Can you suggestion some methods of prayer that might work better for me?
- I am a single mother of a 15 month old. In order to meet my financial obligations, I need to work about 10 hours per week. I have the opportunity to work casually from home and aim each week to work 2 hours each week day. As soon as my daughter has her daytime sleep, which is once per day right now, for 1-2 hours, I very quickly jump onto the computer to work unless I feel God is asking me to do something else, like cry or scream, or cook/clean, etc. There are two people who have offered to spend time with my daughter each week, for a total of around 4 hours, during which time I also work. My daughter is sleeping less and less during the day and I find it difficult to fit in the 10 hours per week. I am also not finding ample time right now to source myself as most of the time I have “alone,” when she is asleep or with another person, I work. I am starting to feel very tired and worn out and it is affecting my state of mind and my moods to the point where I sometimes don’t have the energy or patience to be fully present with my daughter because I am so worn out, and I am finding myself getting triggered very easily with her and I have recently displayed anger with her and around her. I know something has to change within me in order to find balance. Most importantly, I know I need to continuously release the rage inside of me that is triggered by being a mother, and at the same time surrender more completely to motherhood and give up the fight that I have had, and acknowledge all that I do have. I know all of this, and then there is the practical aspect of needing to work and pay bills. Please, Louix, help me to better understand my current circumstances.
- Could You please talk about suggested breathing techniques to deepen meditations? One teacher said to just sit and be open – without expectations. Yogananda writes, as best as I can remember, that that is a detour and a time-waster. How does one best approach meditations?